So maybe today

I don’t know what it is, maybe the fact that it was too perfect with you but I just can’t let you go. It usually takes me a long time to get over a heart break, but there was nothing to get over so I don’t understand these lingering feelings. I must be holding on to a fairytale. I mean I wish you would get it I’m not trying to change anything, I just don’t wanted to be treated like I’m nothing. But I suppose if I am then I get it I wish you would just say that. Say there is no point in talking to me or something, because I’m meaningless and I can’t even be a friend. That’s all I need to hear. Maybe you need to break my heart a little instead of just letting me hurt myself because I miss you but I’m always going to be the last you call. What I really want is to just talk like we used to. That’s all, but you know it’s hard when I think every second you’re going to ignore me, only from experience. I don’t deserve that either way, if you don’t care then I’m an adult, just tell me. and don’t say you’ll talk to me later and then chose not to, it’s your choice not to talk but don’t play that game, just don’t say you’ll talk if you really don’t mean it.

I don’t get close to people. I can’t even tell my parents everything. I’m insecure. You wouldn’t get it but, when I feel like someone I can be close to is forgetting me, I just break.

We talked in my dream

I saw you at the mall, it hurt as much to see you in my dream as it does in this fallacious reality.

Mall

To dream that you are at the mall represents your attempts in making a favorable impression on someone. You are trying to  establish your identity and sense of self. The choices you make in life will mold who you are as a person. The mall is also symbolic of materialism and the need to keep up with the trends, fads, and/or the latest technology. Consider the type and name of stores that you see in your dreams.

Lover

To dream of an old or former lover signifies unfinished/unresolved issues related to that specific relationship. Perhaps, your current relationship is awakening some of those same issues.

Uniform

To dream that you or someone is in uniform signifies your need to belong or be part of a group. Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you are conforming too much to the beliefs of others. Learn to think for yourself and be your own person.